Stupid time of night to start writing a blog! Cherry is calling and may have a wet pad, so being awake is OK, but actually having the mind for words is quite unlikely. So I leave this as a draft beginning for a later attempt.
Later... as in the following night!
Funnily enough, we have just changed a wet bed again, meaning that I left this post to change Cherry's bed, then returned 24 hours later after doing the exact same thing! Sometimes the patterns of life are so spooky... or is it that we do something like this every night and I have had my attention grabbed by consciously including it in the blog? In terms of care and support, it is often difficult to stay conscious of the repetitive tasks that measure the days of caring for someone with a disability. It is a defence against the desire to run that causes us to numb out and 'get on with the job'. I remember this starting to happen very early on when the nightmare was just beginning. After a while, we got so good at it that we hardly noticed how completely the caring tasks usurped our lives. It was necessary to allow an outside perspective to call our attention back to the moment and a realisation of what was happening. But it isn't really about us, is it? It's more about Cherry and her life. And valuing the moments in our own lives is the way we stay awake to the process of Cherry's life and keep it whole and treasured... respected and enjoyed... not just a series of tasks we 'have to do'. It is a gift to be aware of the person in the life you serve. It offers a deep validity to all you are and calls for the best you can be.
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